Day 22 {Something That Upsets You}

>I’m naturally an optimist. Almost to a fault sometimes, actually. I am one of those annoying people who is always trying to find the positive in a horrible, awful situation. I think it comes from the fact that I love balance and harmony. I hate fighting and I don’t like being mad at people (and vice-versa). I like my world to be a happy place and I like everything to be going right in my world.

BUT…. There is one thing that upsets me to no end…….

I get upset when my beloved Denver Broncos just can’t seem to get it together and win!!! I’ve been cheering for the Broncos since before I can remember. My whole family loves them and I was lucky enough to find Mr. P who loves them too!

I absolutely LOVE going to games. In fact, I had season tickets last year and went to almost every single game. I had to miss the one on my birthday so I could work a double shift (awesome, right?) and the one on Thanksgiving, of course. The rest of them were a blast though! Mr. P and I always go to a little bar right by the stadium for drinks first and then head over and enjoy the game!

And yes – Jacob gets mad when they lose too!!!!

So, even though we are having a not-so-decent year and all three of us get upset when we lose, we’re already hoping for a better year next year…


Day 21 {Another Moment}


There is nothing that I love more (…less than baby and husby, of course) in the world than opening a new bottle of wine, sitting down with the glass, giving it a little swirl and sticking my nose in it. Sure, drinking it is nice too, but there is just something about that moment when you first smell a wine. My mind goes blank and all I can think about is the aroma coming from my glass and what I’m smelling. It’s almost like I’m transported to the vineyard for just a moment. It is one of my favorite moments ever. I just can’t get enough.
I had my first glass of wine at a Thanksgiving dinner with my Mom and Dad when I was 13 or 14 years old. At the time, I absolutely hated it. I’m pretty sure I made a horrible face and passed the glass off to my Dad shortly there after. In college my roommate and I used to buy Franzia Chardonnay (how awful, I know) or Relax Riesling. It was like juice, seriously.  And we didn’t drink for enjoyment, we drank for the effects, unfortunately. Such is the life of a college student. At least we weren’t drinking Pabst Blue Ribbon (well, not all the time anyways…). 
Once I started my job I began to realize that there was a lot more to wine than I ever thought. At the time I was only 19, so I was never allowed to taste the wine, but I could smell it. And I think that’s when I truly fell in love with wine. I learned how to pick out different aromas and I learned what they meant (black pepper is an indicator of Cabernet Sauvignon, for example). I discovered that you can tell a lot more about a wine from the sight and smell of it than you can from the taste – like the alcohol content and the climate from where it came. I started to study and learn as much as I could about it. 
I started helping the sommeliers inventory each month, just so I could learn a little bit more. Each one of these bottles has a different aroma and a different taste and I find it fascinating to discover why. There is so much more that goes into a glass of wine than I ever realized.
This is only one side of the back wine room. And each spot holds two bottles.
Chateau Latour 1945 – The most expensive bottle we have, listed at $5,000.

Once I turned 21 I was able to finally taste a glass of wine at work. We actually had a tasting on my birthday just for me! At that point I decided that I wanted to continue my wine education. I started studying and preparing for the Court of Masters Sommeliers Guild exams. They offer 4 different levels of testing – introductory, certified, advanced and master. There are only about 200 Master Sommeliers in the country. It’s a difficult title to achieve, thats for sure. You have to be invited to take the Advanced and Master exams.

In October of 2009, I took my introductory exam and passed. It was such an amazing day!!! I spent two days in a class with 4 Master Sommeliers, taking notes and tasting wine. I still cannot believe how much I learned in just two short days. The hour wait between the test and the results was agonizing. There were 3 people from my restaurant that took the exam (myself, included) and we spent that hour just sitting there going over every single question trying to figure out if we were right or not. I actually thought I’d failed the exam and I was so thrilled that I didn’t!!! Of course we celebrated with a few bottles of wine. What else are you supposed to celebrate with?!

I officially became a certified wino on that day. I still proudly wear my pin to work every day. I still cannot believe that everything I’ve learned and achieved has been because of that one moment that I fell in love with – that moment when you very first smell a glass of wine and imagine where it came from. It is absolutely one of my favorite moments ever. Luckily – I can relive it as often as I want.

Day 20 {This Month}


Well I’m reaching out for a sunny day. 
‘Cause all these clouds are bringing me down.
If I could just see a glimpse of your smile
The clouds would be gone for a while.
I’m giving in to this loneliness,
Sitting here thinking of you. 
If I could just hear your gentle voice,
This loneliness would be through.
And I believe in the month of October.
‘Cause that’s when my dreams came true.
In that wonderful month of October,
I fell in love with you. 
I fell in love with you.
I’m holding on to the moments we shared.
‘Cause it’s always a while till the next time.
If I could ask God for one simple thing,
I’d ask to be near you for life.
And I believe in the month of October.
‘Cause that’s when my dreams came true.
In that wonderful month of October,
I fell in love with you. 
I fell in love with you.
                                                – “October” by Abandonato

Are those not the most beautiful lyrics you’ve ever heard in your life. The actual song is even more beautiful than they lyrics. Check out a preview here. I first heard Abandonato in college at the Music & Message Festival. They’re a local Colorado band, but I don’t think they’re making music anymore. Up until now I’d never been able to relate this song to anything in my life or really understand the song. I heard it for the first time again in a long time recently and it really kind of hit home and fit my mood. It’s been on repeat on iTunes for a few weeks now (when I’m not listening to Baby Einstein or Disney music).
This month marks the seventh month that Mr. P has been away. I was only 16 weeks pregnant when he left. Wow. Looking back on all of that time, I just can’t believe how it has seemed to have flown by. Maybe not in the moment, but now it seems like it has. I still find it hard to believe that I have survived without Mr. P here for so long. I still cannot believe it is already October and we are getting ready for homecoming. And at the same time, the clouds and overcast weather really makes me a little bit lonely and really make me wish he was home to cuddle up on the couch with me.
October was the month that I met Mr. P, so it’s always been a little bit special for us. We met a week before Halloween and we went out and celebrated Halloween together. I was an angel and he was a golfer. From that point on we were together pretty much every day. At least until this deployment.

With everything going on this year, I still love October! I love that the leaves are changing and the air is crisp. I absolutely love crunching leaves under my shoes (and I’ll go out of my way to do it). There is something magical about sitting outside, swapping tales and enjoying a pumpkin spice latte with a friend. I love being able to put on a sweater and curl up on the couch with a cup of tea. October is my favorite month of the year.

October is Jacob’s second month of life (already, I know). His little personality is already shining through and every day he shows me a new expression or sound. He smiled for the first time when he was 5 1/2 weeks old and my heart grew even more that day. He is holding his head up by himself 95% of the time and only rarely loses control and needs help. I keep seeing little mannerisms of his that are so similar to Mr. P and I – like the way his left eye closes a little bit when he smiles (I do that) and the blank stare he gives me right before he bursts into a smile when I’m being goofy (I swear its the same look Mr. P gives me).
Jacob has developed a relationship with a mighty fun octopus on his play gym this month. We creatively named the octopus, Octo. They will play and talk for hours (ok, not hours, but a darn long time) every day. Jacob will smile at him and reach up and swat at the rattle on his tentacle. There is just something about the little face on Octo that Jacob is in love with! He just can’t get enough of those tentacles (and Octo is missing 6 of them…). 

Needless to say, this hasn’t been the most amazing October I’ve ever had, but it’s still been a pretty good month! I’m looking forward to next month even more though!!


Blog Changes

>So I’ve been up since 3:30 working on the new blog. I’ve been having trouble getting back to sleep in the mornings because my mind is going a million miles an hour. But that’s for another post.

So anyways I decided I’d try my hand at this whole graphics editing thing. I downloaded Gimp for Mac. It took me like 3 hours to figure out how to use it. I tried reading an online manual but that just left me even more confused! I basically learned through trial and error!

I am really pleased with the header. I love the way it turned out!! It was absolutely NOTHING like what I had in mind when I started but I’m very pleased. I DO like the background, but I feel like it’s the focus of the page, not the header, which I DON’T like. So that will probably be changing. I’m not sure to what, but something a little more relaxed. I also feel like there is a lot of yellow and nothing else right now. I’m debating on what color to introduce as a secondary color.

There will also be some more little things coming soon – icons, a button, etc. – but those shouldn’t take away from the blog or make it hard to read! I will do my best to keep everything looking good while changes are taking place!

So what do you all think so far?! What are your suggestions for secondary colors? Any other idea or suggestions? This is my first shot at it so be honest and tell me what you think! I’d love the input!!!

So I think I found it! I am in LOVE with the grass in the background! It is beautiful. At least I think so anyways. For my first try I am unbelievably happy with how it turned out! I am so in love and I just want to sit here and look at it because I’m so proud of myself!! YAY!!!

I just have a few more things coming, like a new button, and the construction will be done and we can get back to our regular blogging!

I’m kind of busy the next few days so I may be a bit behind, but I’ll be back as soon as possible.


Wordless Wednesday


The last one….

If you’ve ever been through a deployment you know how exciting this is!


I believe…

>… that holding my sweet little boy is the best part of my day.

… that this deployment has brought my husband and I even closer and helped our communication.

… eBay is addicting. In the past two days I’ve purchased a Bumbo, Moby and Twilight Turtle night light for half the retail price.

… that having coffee with new friends makes my day 100 times better!

… The Biggest Loser is inspiring. It’s one of my new favorite shows.

… waking up to baby smiles is the best way to wake up!!

… my baby loves the truffle shuffle.

… this deployment is almost over and I’ve never been more excited.

… cooking with pumpkin and pumpkin spice lattes are the best part of fall. Oh and the changing leaves.

… my parents divorce was a blessing in disguise.

… my girlfriends from work are more amazing than I ever knew.

… that the bond between mother and child is so much stronger than I ever expected.

Now head over to Exploits of a Military Mama and link up with your OWN I believe post!!!


Day 19 {Something You Regret}

>I hate the word regret. I absolutely hate it. I never say that I regret something because generally my choices have led me to bigger and better things. The more I look back on the choices I made the happier I am about them.

The ONE thing I wish I could change was my choice not to return to school. I was half way done with my bachelor’s degree and I never finished it. The college I went to was in a town of 5,000 people and half of that was college students. The entire town revolved around the school. When I was at college I was surrounded by people in school, so it was easier to be motivated to finish. Now that I’m here in a larger city that isn’t completely focused on the college it’s not nearly as easy to go to school and stay focused. Having that degree, that little piece of paper, would make my life so much easier. I would have already gotten a new job at the hotel and I would be making more money. I probably wouldn’t be working nights. And I wouldn’t be so stressed out about getting into a new position.

With that being said – I am so unbelievably thankful that I am where I am. If I hadn’t made the choice to leave school and move 3 hours away, I wouldn’t have gotten the job at the hotel. I wouldn’t have met Steann and Mike, who introduced Mr. P and I. I wouldn’t be married to my amazing husband and we wouldn’t have a beautiful little boy!

I guess what really amazes me is even though I feel like I made the wrong choice it’s always turned out for the better in the end. And that’s part of the reason that I don’t believe in using the word regret. Sure at the time it may seem horrible and awful, but there generally seems to be a reason that things work out the way that they do. I’m very thankful for the life I have now and I wouldn’t have it any other way. So I guess in some respects that makes me thankful for the decisions that, in the past, I would have changed.